Travelling: AntwerpJanuary 02, 2013
The year 2012 brought, like the years before, a lot of sadness and changes in my life. Some difficult to cope with, others were for the better. Therapy wise I learned alot of new things, though some were hard to chew and opened a can of worms. But you know what they say: you always have to bite the bullet. It goes from worse to rotten and from rotten on you can build yourself up again to a better life. That's what's happening to me now at the moment. My therapist, whom I see this year already for four years, still believes that a good ending lies in my fortune. The year 2012 was the year where I had to deal with my trauma's and I started EMDR therapy. I could not finish it as it was too hard and painful for me, but this year I am gonna give it a go again. Hopefully I'll be a lot stronger.
Last year I met wonderful new people many of them became my friends, but I also met rotten people. I suffered a great deal from a stalker which turned into a police case and unfortunately he's still on the loose and I am afraid to go out on the streets every now and then, plus it made me keep my Facebook and such other things as private as I could get it - something I vowed never to do so, as it made me feel that I let the other take control over my life. But in this case it was necessary. These days it's quiet and I hope it stays that way. Luckily I learned how to filter out the bad people and abandon those who only wish to harm me. However, I also had many great photoshoots and meetings with people who share the same interest as me in 2012, and those are the important things. I am proud to be a member now of Club Interbellum - definitely a highlight! It feels great to be among people who think like you and live like you do. Another highlight of 2012 was absolutely a new beginning with Ben. I jumped from the other relationship into this one, but you know ... if your in love you have to make the right choice, do what's good for you and try to harm the one you leave as little as possible. It's not done for me to cheat on someone or keep them on a string. There was no other choice but to leave that relationship. My relationship with Ben feels as breathing and I finally - no exaggeration! - learned what real love was. For many it might've seen a bit quick, but sometimes one needs to jump without not knowing what lays ahead. This time I made the right jump!
This year was a year filled with losses and the biggest loss of this year was the passing away of my grandfather - just before Christmas. He always hated Christmas, so it was typically my grandfather to leave the world with this big bang. He will be missed. I have learned so much from him: my appreciation for nature, books, classical music and art. Those will live on in me.
Every year I hope that the new year will be my year. It never seems so, but one keeps hoping. Sóme year will be my year right?! So who knows this one is it! I have great new opportunities upcoming; great meetings and a tón of photoshoots. I am very looking forward to it, and I am gonna give definitely more than last year or the year before.
I hope to meet many more amazing people and get much more offers to pose in front of a lens.
I hope you all had a marvelous new years celebration and I wish everyone (read: everyone!) a marvelous 2013 with lots of awesomeness and love!
Ben and I wanted to celebrate our New Year in a different country. We chose Antwerp at the last minute. Not a wrong choice! Such a beautiful city with so much history! Unfortunately the photo's are not very splendid, as I had to make them with my phone!
Our hotel was the Diamonds and Pearls. A great hotel with a much greater hotelroom. It was totally to our likes! We brought two bottles of champagne and looked forward to step with eachother into a new fresh year.